I just keep getting in my own way!

I have been reading a new Bible study and the book reading Self-Talk Soul Talk. I’m so thankful that God can connect his word to the world around me. He has opened my eyes up every day since starting thsee books. He’s shown me that I need to step aside and let him handle things and that I need to stop picking up those bad stones and just passed them to him. When I continue to pick up the stones  it continues to get heavier and heavier and more difficult to carry. I Can Be My Own Worst Enemy sometimes! I’m so thankful for all that he shows me and for all that he does. I need to be moved by His Spirit more and my mind needs to be renewed every single day. I will continue to pray everyday that I will do His will and that He will be my everything. I need to stay focused on Him for my every need. I want to learn to boot myself out of the way and let Him take control.

Just stop trying!

I find myself in a daily struggle I  need to be in control of my surroundings and sometimes those around me. Do you ever feel this way? Do we or can we change? How can we release the struggle?

 My middle son has a very strong will personality. He is 17 and is ready to spread his wings. Due to his impulsive behavior I try to keep a leash on him, which in itself is a battle! I am afraid if I don’t do this that I will lose him. Now, he is saved, so I praise God for this! I was at the end of my rope 2 nights ago and lost it with him, which made him do the same. The next morning, I was in God’s word and I had to stop and just pray. I prayed, “God what can I do to get him to see what he is doing?” God responded with a very simple answer, “NOTHING”. 

At that moment I realize the truth! I can’t do anything! It is all God. I have to pray daily that God will allow me to do nothing. I am praying for my son that God will open his eyes. I know God’s got this and I don’t. 

Just stop trying to do things or be the fix it person when you don’t even have the ability or power to do so. We have got to learn to release it to God. He is the only fixer.

Read the parable of the Prodigal Son below. Sometimes we have to let go in order for them to fall so God will bring them back. 

Luke 15:11-32King James Version (KJV)

11 And he said, A certain man had two sons:

12 And the younger of them said to his father, Father, give me the portion of goods that falleth to me. And he divided unto them his living.

13 And not many days after the younger son gathered all together, and took his journey into a far country, and there wasted his substance with riotous living.

14 And when he had spent all, there arose a mighty famine in that land; and he began to be in want.

15 And he went and joined himself to a citizen of that country; and he sent him into his fields to feed swine.

16 And he would fain have filled his belly with the husks that the swine did eat: and no man gave unto him.

17 And when he came to himself, he said, How many hired servants of my father’s have bread enough and to spare, and I perish with hunger!

18 I will arise and go to my father, and will say unto him, Father, I have sinned against heaven, and before thee,

19 And am no more worthy to be called thy son: make me as one of thy hired servants.

20 And he arose, and came to his father. But when he was yet a great way off, his father saw him, and had compassion, and ran, and fell on his neck, and kissed him.

21 And the son said unto him, Father, I have sinned against heaven, and in thy sight, and am no more worthy to be called thy son.

22 But the father said to his servants, Bring forth the best robe, and put it on him; and put a ring on his hand, and shoes on his feet:

23 And bring hither the fatted calf, and kill it; and let us eat, and be merry:

24 For this my son was dead, and is alive again; he was lost, and is found. And they began to be merry.

25 Now his elder son was in the field: and as he came and drew nigh to the house, he heard musick and dancing.

26 And he called one of the servants, and asked what these things meant.

27 And he said unto him, Thy brother is come; and thy father hath killed the fatted calf, because he hath received him safe and sound.

28 And he was angry, and would not go in: therefore came his father out, and intreated him.

29 And he answering said to his father, Lo, these many years do I serve thee, neither transgressed I at any time thy commandment: and yet thou never gavest me a kid, that I might make merry with my friends:

30 But as soon as this thy son was come, which hath devoured thy living with harlots, thou hast killed for him the fatted calf.

31 And he said unto him, Son, thou art ever with me, and all that I have is thine.

32 It was meet that we should make merry, and be glad: for this thy brother was dead, and is alive again; and was lost, and is found.